Title stolen from here.
Anyhow, the deeper I get in this year the more I can't wait to be a senior so that I can graduate. Oddly enough I'm doing my best to keep an air of optimism around me, if I start to feel negative it's hard to pull myself back up, and that's the worst thing ever, and it's really hopeless.
I felt so pathetic last year.
I still have that urge to go to the countryside, I also like aged buildings, or places, when nature starts to dominate uninhabited, once industrial, lands. Kind of like Pripyat, but less creepy if that's possible.

Excellent, I'm wasting time on LJ again, and scanning friend's entries over and over, and wondering what I should update with. Somehow it feels nice to do that. 
Bah, I never look forward to going back to school.

I really like Gustav Klimt's artwork.

So I've been gone for a long while. I didn't want my journal to get in the way of academic success, or whatever, but I just figured I should be able to juggle an internet journal and school assignments, it's not that hard.
I'm going to start this thing back up now, I miss looking at all of my friends journals. Haha, they've probably piled up on me.

I made a tumblr, but I'd rather stay on LJ for a while... because, well, there's too many "cool" people from my school that have a tumblr, and for some weird reason that intimidates me.
I want to hang-out with more new people, or people who are awesome but I barely get to hang-out with in the first place; pretty much talking about TJ, because when I did hang-out with him and Bianca it was loads of fun, though our time, and activities were limited, and Dave Gunn (zeroenthusiasm ); I never got to chill with him, but it seems like it'd be fun if he doesn't mind. There's also others, but it wouldn't make sense to name all of them. I've also neglected my Deviantart because I'm probably going to make a new account soon, I haven't really even drawn anything good, I actually don't see the point of getting one until my skills improve massively. I'm just writing down whatever comes to mind. I've resolved to taking more pictures, even though I don't do anything with them but let them collect cyber dust in my computer's folders.
One interesting movie I watched was XXY, about a hermaphrodite which was pretty good. The movie is in Spanish, so there were subtitles, that never bothers me though. I think the decision Alex makes in the end is interesting. I plan on watching Salo or the 120 Days of Sodom, when I get the balls. I have it downloaded and everything, but there's just something about it, the reviews on IMDB don't help, and my brother stumbling into my room after watching it with a horrified expression on his face, didn't help either.
There's this field trip called portfolio day where I guess colleges evaluate your artwork and comment on it. I'm nervous to go to it, but I'm going anyway for the experience, just in case I really plan on going to art college, I mean currently I want to but my ideas for college may change.
Did I ever talk about how much fun I had at Jenn's party in my last entry? Well, I'm glad I went... yep.
I really like my math teacher, I think he's cool /random.
Ah yes, I got a last.fm, those things are pretty nifty, and it's fun to meet other people with similar music tastes or at least look at profiles that have the same music taste as you.

Oh yeah, I have to pick out four songs for The Crucible, suggestions anyone? 

Just adding him because of his freckles, O god his adorable freckles, and his cute face.

Yeah, so it's a fact. This journal has been neglected for far too long, and I blame school... even though other people have been updating just fine with school, I guess I'm impaired.
I've been thinking about deleting a lot of my music so that I can start over fresh. Maybe delete all of it, unless I know for sure I want to keep it.
Anyway, I plan on making a real entry later or something. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, all I know is that I miss participating and updating my journal.

random graffiti picture.

Why do girls like assholes? Seriously, it seems like my friends who are female, who are pretty enough and likable enough to get a smart/decent guy always choose assholes over the sincere ones. Then they wonder why the relationship didn't work out, granted high school relationships almost never work out, but could you at least choose wisely?
I wish I was born a male.
I want to download movies, but I don't have anymore space on my computer and I'm too lazy to delete things.
There's this friend I have, her name is Jenn, and I'm not really like her but she wants me to go to her party. She's fun to talk to and all, and I'm glad that she invited me; I'm really nervous because I don't want to be stuck in a room filled with people I almost have nothing in common with, I mean most of them are acquaintances or we don't really talk so it's just going to be awkward. Eh, I don't know. I don't think I'll go. Even though I already RSVP'd.
I want this boook.

They need to have a site that's like Songmeanings.net or IMDB.com for books!
The more I update the more I realize that almost never include my drawings. I mine as well make a separate account for it, or something. I barely ever update my Deviantart. I just want to get better before I actually submit something there...then again with my mentality I won't see improvement until years and years later.

I remember my hazy days before btjunkie.com, and I wanted to watch this movie called Wild Tigers I Have Known, I discovered them on Milkboys.org, which is a very nice website to browse through and read. I don't know why I said my hazy days, as if I were really young before I started using btjunkie, haha.
Some articles that may catch someone's interest
8 Racist Words You Use Every Day
9 Words That Don't Mean What You Think
6 Most Horrific Bosses of All Time
My computer is running out of disk space. It really sucks because I honestly don't know what more to get rid of, I backed up all of my files on a USB, so I mine as well delete every folder, except for my music folder, because for some weird reason your iPod will only sync to one library, on one computer. If you try to change it, it deletes all of your music and syncs to that computer's library, it's kind of annoying. Sorry for the crappy explanation, but anyone with an iPod should know what I'm talking about.
Yeah, so I will definitely be commenting on people's journals; some, I'll wait until they update because it'd be insane to comment on all of their old journals, I'll just read 'em and wait. Haha, laziness.
School's been okay, it seems like it'll be an easy year; I have three gym classes though and that sucks, that's what I get for being a scumbag and not changing for gym last year. Gym just seems so unimportant for your academic success to me, alas you have to change to pass. So I'll change.
Eff school.
So, how is everyone else?

I finally got the internet back... well, sort of.
Yeah, I have a looot to catch up on.

01) Pick 20 films you enjoyed.
02) Post a screen capture from each one.
03) Have everyone guess which film the pictures are from.
stolen from zeroenthusiasm /xsmithereens 

( 20 movies to guess  )

For some weird reason I keep getting anxiety about things, I then forget what it was I was worried about, and then it'll go away. A few moments or hours later I'll worry about something again, only to forget once more. It's weird. I also got this random fear of going back to school. I mean, can I really do better this time? Am I actually going to wake up on time, do my homework, go to bed at a decent hour, and make sure that I keep consistently good grades? I'm scared that I'm not going to change, and it's not that I'm dumb, it's just that I have a hard time getting motivated for school, or having any type of structure, or time management skills. Aaagh, and then we're moving, but for some weird reason not one thing is really packed up, except for my brother's videogames. I haven't heard mom talk about getting moving trucks, we barely have any boxes; I don't want to wait until last minute for us to start moving that would suck. I haven't even gone shopping for school clothes, or whatever.
All in all though, it's nothing serious,  hopefully it'll fall into place, and our moving process won't be too hectic or anything. Good thing the move isn't that far away.

I went to central park with Bianca, I'll post pictures from that later... and maybe some artwork, I don't know. All I have are boring studies.
You know what I forgot in that movie list? V for Vendetta. :/

I decided that I'm going to keep a gluestick on me wherever I go. Especially in school, it makes it easy to just paste things into my journal. Haha.
( Pictures  )
Sometimes I use my computer as a light table, if it's computer paper. I'm lame, and ghetto. I also use my window as a light table, if I need to, in the daytime.
redrockett and I made a mixtape for each other. We just put 15 songs in a zip file, uploaded it to mediafire, and bam. There you have it. If anyone is willing to send me a mixtape, that would be awesome. Because I love getting new music.
I'm always looking forward to having new penpals. Hint, hint.
moinoii , I'm finally working on the mail I'm going to send you!
Tomorrow I want to walk around Jay street, just look at the things there. I want to enjoy the weather before it gets all cold, and depressing outside.
I'm going to go watch this horror movie called Uzumaki now, it's based on the horror manga of Junji Ito. I thank redrockett for reminding me about it. I still need to invest (I almost wrote incest) in getting some of Junji Ito's manga.